Do i Still.....???

In The year 2004, God brought me To St. John's Wort Montessori School to experience the journey of their institution! And suddenly! Someone catches my attention! He was one of the great Dancer in our school... Actually he was the Choreographer of the School! ("omg!.. In a major power ang publicity ne'to")... He's not a Dream Guy to be considered!.. But!.. He has a great Charisma when it comes to Girls! He's the replica of my Uncle... as in evrything... the way he walks, he smile, he move and he talk... and everything!..


So... I was really amazed!.. And I never knew that he was a great mover... i wasmore amazed when i saw him moving and dancing... for the up coming LG quiz on TV... way back in 2004... I was just a Freshman... and he was Junior!


I used to see him everyday... that i couldn't even take my eyes of him... everytime he passes by... he became my inspiration.. ("What the hell!")...


Until the right time came! He knew everything! Because of my "big, fat hairy deal classmate"..!.. (Waaaahhhh.....) My classmate brought him inside our classroom... and stood up infront of my seat... telling.... "Hey! Can I get your number? Because she's asking it to me almost everyday!" (Aaarrrggghhh...!!!.. I just asked my stupid and liar classmate once!) so annoying! And that's the beginning of having dilemmas unto him!


As time passes... i was already Sophie... and he was Senior... we can't even talk to each other! ("Arrgghhh!") And oh my God!.. Another hurdle!.. I wasn't able to Jon the cheering.. I was like frozen inside & out.. I wasn't able to move and do the right thing!.. ("Gaddemette!..")..


(Burglar!..") I was like a stupid, scrouchy, Bitch stalker of him!.. That everything that he will do.. Should be scratchy and informed to me by my source!.. Who’s that source of mine???.. Well then!..


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Everytime he passes by.. I don't know what will I do.. Time always Stops!.. but then!.. as usual!.. Still the same.. Nothing changes!.. No talk, Deadma!.. until He graduated..

And now.. everytime he Visits!.. Still the same!.. "Again"

few months ago.. 1 of my classmates.. as well as his friend.. told me.. that he's not sudying anymore.. he's already working.. in a food chain restaurant!.. Somewhere in Taytay Rizal!.. I was wondering why he was so since he's rich!.. hopefully he's in 2nd year of studying Business Administration in Psba..

Until.. the day comes.. that i forgot already evrything about him.. as in.. I don't care about him anymore!.. Can't imagine that in my everyday life.. he was not in my mind already!.. but.. because of my classmate.. still.. because everyday.. he used to tell and inform me.. that they were together the night before going home.. they go out often.. something like that.. because they're really good friends.. my Classmate used to remind me to him always.. often.. i guess.. (nyahahaha!!!..)


Oh My God!.. yesteday!.. Guess what!.. He went to School.. (Unexpected) "expect the unexpected"!.. I was in the Computer room.. so.. I don't know and i don't have an any idea that he's outside!.. it's already dismissal.. i went out from the computer room going back to our classroom to get and pack up my things.. oh my God!.. i was so.. clueless.. that he was just outside our room.. talking to the teachers.. arrrggghh!.. i was teasing and ruining my classmates life as well as his friends!.. then suddenly!.. one of my friend.. whispered in me "Pia,.. nanjan siya sa labas!".. and then i said.. "sino?.. anong problema mo?.." I thought she was just joking!.. but then.. when i looked out on the window!.. he is!.. waaaahhhh.. I was like stumbling and i just wanted to dig the floor and just go out through the ground!.. I don't know what will i do!..

Most of my classmates noticed that somethings wrong w/ me.. when they knew it!.. they're shouting and yelling.. as in!.. especially his friend.. there doing like "ayyyyyyy..... anjan pala eh...... kya pla c Pia.... natetense na naman!.. teka nga!.. malapitan.. at ipapakilala kita!" (huwaaaaaat??!!!)


My God!.. I really wanted to digged in the floor to and just go out through the ground.. all of them were shouting.. and Laughing "ahhhhhh... hahahahaha!!!.. si Pia hindi makalabas ng Classroom.. jan ka na matulog.. kala mo ahh.. ang lakas mong mang-asar.. oh ano ka ngayon?.." huhuhuhuh.. :'(.. I Don't know why it was like that.. I can't understand the feeling that i have for him!.. I don't think if i still love him!.. arrrggghh!!!.. and oh my God!.. I can't imagine me, myself.. when i was in 19 East.. and exactly.. Freestyle were there!.. w/c reminds me of him!.. huwaaaat!!!.. i don't think if everything was planned!.. grrrrrr..... He was on my mind for the whole night!.. And i even really cried w/ tears.. yah!.. i was!..

Awhile Ago!.. In School.. I do Still.. ("kaya nga mhirap talaga pag nakikita q sya eh.. bumabalik ung hindi dapat bumalik").. Hay!.. nku nman!.. The Hardest thing to do in this life is "Letting Go".. We're not doing anything knina.. so... what we did.. kumanta nlng kme ng kung ano2ng kanta.. oldies man or modern.. and we had fun!.. while doing it!.. I remember him again!.. so.. I asked My Classmate again and as well as his friend.. what did i ask him?.. i asked him.. "May Kapatid b un?.." ever since we were together.. i never had a chance to know if he has siblings.. and guess what!.. i was really shock!.. as in!.. when he answered..

"oo, meron.." and then i answered..

"oh talaga?!!.. mas matanda ba sa kanya?"

"hindi.. mas bata sa kanya.."

"saan naman nag-aaral?.."

"hindi nag-aaral.. kasi.. OTISTIC yung kapatid nya eh!.."

(Oh My God!.. Na-shock talaga ko!.. as in!..) tpos...

"oh talaga!.. babae o lalake?"

"babae"

"Mga ilang taon?"

"Siguro mga 10 years old"

I still want to ask a lot of things about him.. kya lng.. nhi2ya n q.. and inaasar na din aq.. na..... "ay!.. wla n turn-of na sya!" uhhhhhhh... :'( how sad!.. but despite of that information.. I do and I will always love him.. I will always treasure and remember that he was the only guy who let me realize my worth.. uhhhh.... :'(

I did this.. because i want to let everyone know and realize that.. whatever, whereever,whoever you are.. if he really loves you he/she will accept you.. whatever you are..

I didn't mentioned names because.. I want a better privacy for the people who were involve!.. that's all..

:')