Another nIgHT to RemEmbEr

Good morning Sunshine!
currently watching SOP
I remember Mark and I on Jay-R and Kyla last night..

A happy Funny Ann's birthday!

5pm
I accompanied yana and Anj to Index Salon for fixing their Hair

okaay. so they're done already, pero ako hindi pa.. nag-aayos pa lang ako.. kasi kinuha ko pa damit ko.. err!
whew! thank God! nakapag-ayos ako..

Done! just waiting for Danah..



Mark! 2 thumbs up!
astig ka talaga! galing!

Mark and I had a special song number for the debutant. we prepared "PAANO" by Jinky Vidal of freestyle and Janno Gibbs. 2 weeks before Ann's birthday.. we had been planning already. till we fell into "Paano" And "bakit pa ba?" 'coz according to her.. any love song will do.. I find it nice singing and having a duet version of "bakit pa ba?". well, last night.. nagkaron ng changes.. Mark told me na, isa na lang ang kantahin namin.. kasi si Carlson kakanta pa.. crowd might get bored.. so, I just chose "Paano" and Carlson on his song "Ako'y sa'yo at ika'y akin lamang". while, doing nothing.. It came into my mind that "bakit pa ba" is a nice song.. so I asked Mark if he still wants to sing that song.. and then he told me to asked the emcee if we could still. and finally! it was being approved by the emcee.. whew! while waiting for our next number.. Carlson and I had a heart to heart talked. we went outside, then Mark followed. the three of us had a serious talked.. well.. we had shared a lot of things. And! dan! dan! dan! dan! t'was our number na! we had trio.. I was so shock but so touched when Ann's Boyfriend asked her to dance.. while playing the song that we were singing.. Gosh! that's so sweet! Ann's crying so much.. and everyone's shouting.. I wish I had a boyfriend.. joke!(biglang segway ng ganun eh noh). naisip ko tuloy, buti na lang pinilit ko si Mark na kumanta ulit kami.. wahaha!

10.30pm
the program's over but there's still a videoke party till 11pm.
Carlson and I again had a song number "Bakit ngayon ka lang"
and done!

11.30pm
S'cool time
Ann's party ended early, so, we still hung out in S'cool, had a 2 pitcher of cocks..

1.20am
@ my place!
err! non-stop laugh trip!
Aubs and I had a disaster Pancit Canton past midnight snack..
Raffy and Angela had a heart to heart talk also.. while yana's sitting beside them.. till she fell asleep.. same with Edric.. Iris and Paul were on the computer.

5.00am
the night has just begun..
sleeping time!

8.30am
breakfast, all together!

10.30am
Aubs, Raffy, Yana, Iris left the house..

12.00
Lunch with Edric, Paul and Angela

1.30pm
I was again alone in the house..

4.10pm
went to my bed and woke up by 6.30pm

6.30pm
dad and I had our dinner in Chowking..

I NeEd A BrEaK!

August will be ending soon again.. but paper works never stops! well, this month really sucks! month where in everyone gets so emotional. errr! I don't know, and even I.. maybe, I was just being carried away by their emotions and it's just barely truth that what other people shows you, that's also how you feel! I am currently doing my synopsis in Literature about the story of "DEAD STARS" and I do always hate his subject because of the profs teaching system! err! I hate the way she teaches! she needs minimum of three pages essay regarding this asshole story! The nerve! I am not feeling well talaga! because of so many reasons..

> haven't had enough sleep yet since last, last week.
> My insecurity level's increasing again.
> I hate what I am feeling right now.
> I have a lot of paper works to do.

I had a sleep after having my merienda awhile ago, and upon waking up, my arms are tingling again.. huhuhuh :C I guess, I am too much stressed! things are getting complicated again!
just the other night I was so much happy.. as in full Happiness! as I share that happiness to my friends, seems like I am starting to get hurt because of the information that I had been hearing. err! I just wanted to be discreet about it for the mean time! and I think forever.

PaRT Two oF my posT ThiS DaY

Its 12.22am and I am again officially bored 'coz wave's quiet storm is over. *deep breath! I am a bit well now.

My thoughts..
I've been a stubborn lately... I hate myself so much every time I become someone I would really hate. Sometimes I am my own worst enemy. I don't know why I'm like this. There are times that I am such a pessimistic and a skeptical bitch. Ugh! I hate myself!
I am the first person to admit I am insecure. As much as I would like to be, I can never be 100% totally confident, it's just not me. There has always been something I have been insecure about. And I guess it’s something I begrudgingly accept, because no matter how much effort I make to try and be better, insecure thoughts just creep back in.

I am always a friend to someone and boost everyone's confidence, and try to quell their insecurities. Very ironic to say, it's because I don't think they should have to feel that way and doesn't have anything to be insecure about. However, when it comes to taking my own advice, or applying that same belief to me, it just categorically does not work.

I hate the fact that I'm hating others and trying to put the blame on them, while in fact what really bother me are the insecure thoughts that I am concealing inside me. My insecurities may have been caused by not trusting myself, with anything I am capable of. I would just like to clear that I am not writing this blog to receive compliments, sympathy, or anything to that effect; I'm simply writing it because for me, writing is like therapy. It's better for me than vocalizing much when it comes to personal thoughts especially, I'm too emotional, and writing is something I can do best.

Sometimes, I would just wanted not to be one of his contacts in every net accounts. 'coz despair always creeps in. but, as I cried awhile ago, I fell asleep till I woke up at around 6pm for being so busy on different stuffs just this week. and, I am ok!

I know that tomorrow will be another better day!

:'c

Shet! there's really no reason for me to cry but My tears are totally gushing! :'C Err! Maybe things are not right! rawr! (shet Pia! you have to stop! your mom is just sitting behind you!) Miko revealed what I have done again last Fri. night while I was super drunk! according to Miko I had been crying really hard! and shouting his name! :'C (shet! ayoko na talaga! promise! bakit ganto ko ngayon!) Technology really sucks! err! I'll just continue blogging later, again. I really have to go to my room. I have to stop myself muna.. darn!ano ba!

Insomnia Attacked!

Good morning! There’s no sunshine yet my body and soul is alert and alive. It’s 4.28am here in my computer but actually the time is just 4.05am. Too early to blog, yea! Insomnia lately is viral; I was awoken by the rain and time check was 2.15am. My tummy’s asking for food, so I stood up from my bed and went to the kitchen and here now! I am eating bread and drinking milk! Ohw yea! I did not have my dinner last night. I came from Danah’s place ‘coz it’s her birthday. I am using nga pala an office application, ‘coz supposed I will be logging in on my cyberspaces but there’s no connection because of the rain! I am currently listening also to my favorite station Wave 89.1 and its stormy night session. I heard again the song “LAST CHANCE” by Allure. I miss this song. Hmm… I don’t know what time will the connection be connected and work online! Anyway, I will just make kwento na lang the things that happened since I had my last post.

Aug. 17
No class but Pep training!
I was in school for pep training. As usual, I am late! And the karma was, after the training, the same day; I was having a hard time to walk. Ang sakit-sakit ng katawan ko! I was not able to have some stretching, well it’s my fault. But, the thing is... May progress ang pep squad, the members are increasing, from 15 the members are now 26! Take note! Official members! There are still some who wants to join our squad kaya lang, thinking pa rin. After training, I had no other lakad! Went directly to the house, and had an early sleep for tons of activities the next day.

Aug. 18
Welcome back Edric!
After seven days of being in the formation camp! He’s back with new pakulos, kalokohana and millions of kwentos! Hahaha! Actually, it was a bad day for me! I was pissed of by Paul and Miko so I just stayed away from them and not making pansin to them! Talaga! Sobra! After class, Iris and I went to a boutique in Lores to look for some new trendy clothes, and I found one! Pero, di ako bumili! Hahaha! Di din naman bumili si Iris. Went home early and suddenly my dad asked me why I was too early, hahaha!(well he really does not know what’s my dismissal time hahaha! Actually it’s 3.00 from Tuesday-Thursday pero I usually go home kasi by 5.30. So, I just told him, we were being dismissed early for the retreat tomorrow till Thursday 12pm. So I fixed and packed up the things that I had to bring. And…

Aug. 19
Retreat day!
Super ready! And I was late again but thank God di ako naiwan! Hahaha! Call time: 8.00am I arrived at school by 8.15am! OooPppSssS! I don’t wanna be a spoiler! Humanda ang mga susunod na mga mag-reretreat! Exciting! Wahahaha! Sir Lou and Ms. Jana came late to check us with the loving facilitators! After the extreme activity, had a shower, whoo! Refreshing! We even had a countdown for Danah’s day. We had our own so called Team building before bed time! Ugh! Too much of the so called team building, I was out of my mind! Crapped!

Aug. 20
I woke up at around 3am, lying in the girls room, wondering how did I came in that room and where was Iris which is supposedly lying beside me. Nag-doubt tuloy ako kung tatabi ba ‘ko kay Ann, kasi inisip ko na baka bumalik si Iris, wala siyang katabi. Since, natakot na ko, lumipat na lang ako. (yahoo! May connection na! time check: 5.26am of Aug. 22) till I fell asleep. The next morning, kakamulat pa lang ng mga mata ko, tinanong na agad ako ni Eugene kung anong oras natapos ang team building. Went through the bathroom (na dapat naman talaga hindi na ko maliligo, pero hindi ko talaga kayang wag maligo, naligo na lang ako!) after packing up, went down to have my breakfast, sinalubong agad ako ni Paul from the stairs that I was walking through at mega asar na siya sa’kin, about what happened the night before(err! Tama ba?)! pagdating ko sa eating area, darn! Si miko tawa ng tawa. Until I found out na nalasing nga ako and I’ve been saying a lot of things! Hahaha! I went to the boy’s room! Si Raffy tulog pa! err! Ang dami pang updates and news na binato sa’kin that morning! Honestly, hindi ako nakakain ng maayos! Sa sobrang kahihiyan! After chikahan at kwentuhan, 9.00 start ulit ng activity, and then, group sharing again with our facilitator Sam. After that, pray over was the last activity, slide show presentation and…. That’s the end of the retreat! Pagdating ko sa bahay, I put and cleaned up all of my mess and had a long sleep from 1.30-6.30pm.

Aug. 21.
Danah’s Birthday
Super fun! All pictures will be uploaded maybe next week. That’s all I can say!

Aug. 22.
Frosh Party
Tonight! see yea!

week news!

It's been decades again since I had my long post and there are tons of stories waiting to be publish. hahaha! I miss this. my last blog (excluding yesterday) was last August 3.

Pangasinan Getaway

Mom and I had been to Pangasinan last week. There was a gathering in our church(Aug. 5.), it's the 64th year of Iglesia na Philadelphia
. No car and no too much clothing, we just stayed their for one night and two days, I supposed! but mom had her leave from her work and she made a plan already that she'll be staying their for three days and two nights! unexpected! *dang! wala na rin akong nagawa. nandun na eh! so, I didn't had my thurs. class for the first time! and That day was the first time I had an absent with my Bio subject! so, for the whole day I was in church since 8.30am to 4.00pm. Thank God! it's non-working day!

5.30pm
Nanay(my lola) switched on the television, till.. dan.. dan.. dan.. dan.. the funeral thingy of Former pres.'s not yet done. we watched both network's coverage till 9.00pm. the house was filled with tears while watching except for my tito Ernald, he's the ice breaker! hahaha! everybody was peaceful but very sad and my mom got a phone call from my dad. my dad's also watching and crying! and even I actually.
honestly, It was very heart breaking. especially, everytime that they'll play on Kris's interview on the buzz. anyone who didn't watched the ep. you missed a lot!
Until I fell asleep waiting for Tayong Dalawa.

: Ang galing ng mga kumanta during Cory's funeral. except for Erik Santos! I don't like the quality of his voice..

August 6
My Tito Ernald's wife needs to get her papers(idk what papers for) in municipal hall of Sta. Barbara Pangasinan and my lola told me that I have to register and vote in Pangasinan not here in Antipolo! crappy! ok fine! so, I was with my tito's wife, and ugh! I have no Birth certificate! nakakainis 'di ba! oh well (It seems like i am not in the mood to make a kwento). so, My tito Ernald and his wife went back to manila after they got the papers and Me?.. the poor me.. went back to the house. and waited for 4 o'clock in the afternoon for our trip going back here.

11.00
My sister Julia arrived from school! I was in the kitchen with my Tita Myles preparing for lunch, when my cousin Allanah told us that Julia got a perfect score in her exams. hahaha! daming surprise!

9.30pm
DAU siesta stop over.. Mom had taken out from Jollibee for our dinner.went back to sleep again

11.54pm
I'm Home! didn't had my dad's prepared food for us, just washed up and slept.

okay! it's Friday!
I woke up 8.30am. I wasn't able to attend Literature class. I missed one quiz and discussed topic! shet! mukang babagsak ako kay Roxas! No! this can't be!
my next class for that day was Stat. at 9 o'clock.. I arrived in school by 10.30 I am super late! I had a hard time understanding the new lesson, 'coz I was sitted at the back!

12.00
we went down to Avocado. till Gillian came, I was so touched when she softly scream "Beki" 'coz that's what I presently call her. it's another word for bakla.. hahaha! we had again a super talk and mega chikahan.

1.15pm
we had to go back to school for our rels class. and I gave my pasalubong to Iris, Miko, Paul and Edric.. a 3 bunch of Tupig. they had fun eating tupig, actually.

3.00pm
LDP class! I was appointed to handle the finance for our outreach this coming october. so! after class.. may biglaang team building, si Paul ang nagyaya! dahil mukang tigang na tigang siya sa alak! 'di kasi natuloy First day ng team building na dapat nung thursday. the first day was with Mark&Jhen, Maricar&Miko, Gillian, Marj, Paul, Edric, Iris, and of course, ang bagong dating @ Miko's place! hahaha! si Paul tipsy na, kaya kung ano ano na sinasabi. mga out of this world na nababanggit niya! we also had spin the bottle and those things that came out should just be in Miko's place. Mark and I had a jam and screwed on RnB songs. It was one of the best nights I've ever had. mas naging strong ang friendship namin.. not just because of the revelations, but the point is, we had trusted each and everyone in the group!

August 9
Pep training.

another day, another day of surviving with problem. pero dahil mahal ko ang pep squad gaya ng pagmamahal ko sa LaSalle, sama-sama nating.....
abutin, pinaka-matayog na bituin.. hahaha! let's help one another and face this all together!
after pep, diretcho kaming Baba Ghannouj a meditterenean house of kebab! pero before chilling out, dumaan muna kami ni Gil and Marj in Muscle Corner to check Bodjie, Carl and Mark. till I got a text message from mom telling me to go home.

Aug. 10
An asshole day! can't walk! suffered from muscle pain.. AGAIN!
just stayed in my day bed till afternoon, tapos, went to my mom's office! and It's the first day of Camp in LSGH.


Aug. 11
I hung out in Baba Ghannouj with Miko, Iris&Michael, Paul and Maricar. we had the Hookah melon mint flavor and had pita beef. I had a new friend which is connected to Ate Maye.. his name is Jay. they were schoolmates during highschool.

Aug. 12
just this morning, sir Robby announced about our retreat! dami talagang surprise this month.. wala man lang nakarating sa'kin na paunang balita about this. naloka ako dun ahh. and that will be next week! nappressure na nga kami dahil sa dmaing event this August. may retreat pa bigla! oh 'di ba! If I could just be like a manananggal.. heck! next week will be fully booked for us! after retreat it's Danah's 18th birthday august 21. and Aug. 22 will be Frosh party.. Aug. 23 there'll be a get together party with my mom's friends..


*pictures will be uploaded maybe next week.

Joey De Leon's witty poem for Willie Revillame

ANG TULA NI JOEY DE LEON

Mga kababayan at bayan ko, basahin n'yo.

(The Philippine Star) Updated August 09, 2009 12:00 AM by Joey De Leon

The funeral cortege of former Pres. Cory Aquino: My tears came naturally.

Wala na sa piling ng mga Pilipino,

Tinig ng awiting Mga Kababayan Ko,

At lumisan na rin noong isang Sabado,

Inang nagpalipad sa awiting Bayan Ko.

Ako’y sumasaludo, paalam Pangulo,

May isa ‘kong lihim, kay tagal itinago,

Sa lahat nang inabot kong mga namuno,

Tanging ikaw lang sa luha ko’y nagpatulo.

Marami ang nalungkot sa iyong pagyao,

Magalang ang lahat at puno ng respeto,

Nagpasalamat pa nga Kapamilya sa ‘yo,

Dahil kanilang himpilan naibalik mo.

* * *

Subalit ano itong nabalitaan ko?

Nangyari noong Lunes, a-tres ng Agosto,

Habang inililipat ang mga labi mo,

Ika’y parang nabastos sa isang TV show.

At ang napakasaklap at masakit dito,

Ang nambastos pa’y kapamilya ng anak mo,

Napanood ito ng tao at publiko,

Kakaunti na nga, ngunit lahat nahilo.

Sabi ng TV host na mainit ang ulo

Pagkakita sa video na kanyang kasalo,

“Sandali, meron akong ano… sa’ting ano…

Hindi naman sa ano,” nagkaanu-ano!

Ayon sa Internet, meron pa s’yang nasambit,

“ Sana pakitanggal muna ‘yan sa’ting traffic…”

At ‘di maaalis sa iyong pag-iisip,

Ang parada ng patay ang pinaliligpit!

At dagdag pa daw ng naghahari-harian,

“I don’t think na dapat n’yong ipakita iyan…”

Nasaan naman ang paggalang, o nasaan?

Mga sinasabi natin minsa’y pag-ingatan.

At ‘di pa nangimi nang sumunod na araw,

Pinilit pa ring ginawa n’ya ay tama raw,

Mga nakarinig ‘di na nakagalaw

At ayon sa iba sila na la’y napa-wow!

“… Pero ako, totoo ‘ko eh … “, sabi kuno,

Totoo nga at totoo ring walang modo,

Pwede namang sabihin itong pa-sikreto,

Kaya’t wala na rin mga paliwanag mo.

“Kung ganyan, pakita na lang ‘yan!”, ang hamon pa,

Para bang ang prusisyon nila-“lang - lang” lang ba,

Ang pangasiwaan ay pinapili pa n’ya,

Sumunod ang himpilan, nung August 5 wala s’ya.

May mga komentong pwede nang pang-harapan,

“On camera” baga sa TV ang tawag d’yan

At kung sensitibo man ang gustong bitawan,

Pagpasok ng commercial, hintayin mo na lang.

Matutong magbaba muna ng mikropono

At saka idikta lahat ng iyong gusto,

Lagi kang mataas lahat daw takot sa ‘yo,

Ratings lang ang mababa — totoo ba ito?

The breaking news breaks your heart — at ‘yan ang bawi mo,

Nang mahalata mong sumablay ang pasok mo,

Pero sigurado ika’y maa-abswelto,

‘Di ba ikaw rin ang may-ari ng network n’yo?

Nung Hueves nag-apologize sa diario naman,

O, akala ko ba wala kang kasalanan,

Tapos ng angalan, sunod paliwanagan —

COMPLAIN before you EXPLAIN ka na naman!

O ito kaya ay isa na namang “glitch” lang,

Tulad ng “two-zero” ‘di na natin nalaman,

O ito ay maliwanag na kabobohan?

Sa tingin ng marami, mahirap lusutan.

Ang sabi ng iba — istupidong mayabang,

At giit ng iba — istupidong mayaman,

Mayaman man o mayabang ang tiyak diyan,

Napakayaman n’ya sa kaistupiduhan.

Buti pa ang apat na honor guards ni Cory —

Sina Malab, Laguindan, Rodriguez, Cadiente,

Walong oras tumayo sa ulan at viaje,

Ang lahat ay tiniis at walang sinabi.

Samantalang ikaw na may bubong sa ulo,

Komportable ka lang sa malamig na studio,

Nang kapirasong libing sa TV sumalo,

Angal at inis ang sumambulat sa iyo.

Maaari din namang pabayaan na s’ya,

Subalit ang nangyari’y mabigat talaga,

Namayapang pangulo’y huling paalam na,

‘Di mo pa pinagbigyan … hoy, nag-iisa ka!

At nais ko lang sabihin at ipagyabang

Sa mahigit na s’yam na libong tanghalian,

Sa limang pangulong sa Bulaga’y dumaan,
Kahit isa wala kaming nilapastangan.

* Panama talaga kay Willie Revillame to! Nice one! :">

over the week..

symbol and color of democracy.

1. My dad had cried. I stayed in the house for 3 days, because of incapability in walking. one sat. morning, after having my breakfast with dad I turned on the television. GMA 7 had a special coverage about Cory's death. actually, antagal pa bago ko na-realize na namatay na nga siya. until my dad heard the news that I was watching, he went to the living room to watched everything. My dad really cried. deep inside of me, I was kind of laughing kasi na-ooA(an) ako sa kanya. until my dad told me that Cory is one of his boss in Cojuanco building in Makati. sabi niya din sakin, he was the last person who fixed the chair of the former president in 7th floor of the building. and then, he made a kwento na about Cory. till.. uhhh.. oo nga nakakaiyak pero I had no tears naman eh.

2. I cried with Kris's statement. she shared at the Buzz yesterday, about her first gift to her mom from her first earned money. she bought an expensive watched for her mom, and she was wondering daw why her mom does not used the watched and then her mom. the saddest thing about it was, when her mom is dying already in the hospital, the watch was being wore by her mom. another thing is that, everytime that Kris daw willgive her money from her salary every month, Cory always deposits it in a bank where in that bank is for Kris only, kasi daw kapag wala na daw siya, may savings si Kris. uhh.. that's so sweet..

3. I bought a gift for a special friend. that gift is for Ate Chux. and I'll gonna be giving it to her tomorrow. she'll treat us in Coffee place. Happy Bday te Chux!..

4. I decided not to quit from pep. I went to badminton court, 'coz I was supposed to be talking to Gelie about quitting and regarding about my health. and everyone there were like "Pia, halika na, sayaw na!". until the only thing that I did was removing my shoes and going to the mat. darn! it's really hard for me to leave my pep bitches! haha! I love them so much!

5. August 5. I'll be leaving tomorrow after ate Chux celebration to Pangasinan. it's our church anniversary. so, we have to come and attend, 'coz it's one of the most special event in the whole year.
-official holiday, declared by Pres. Gloria but for LSCA pep squad, walang holi-holiday! sayaw kung sayaw!.. but, I can't come.. kasi mas priority ko ang church, and kaya ko naman magpaturo na lang.

6. I have two 90+ grades this prelims (so far). yes! I have 91 in dev't Psych, 93 in Psych stat and and only 85 in bio. I still don't know in other subjects. 'coz some of the profs are not yet done computing the grades!

7. JPIA week. walang accountancy! hahaha! mamimiss ko kayo! just enjoy and have fun! akala niyo kayo lang ang may JPIA week. kami din Psych sem, hahaha! Kidddowww!!! lahat naman ng org meron ehh..

8. NOKI is Hot. Noki is my nokia 1600 cellphone. yah it has a name and even my other motorola phone, people meet Mola my V3i phone. I had to charge Noki 'coz its deadbatt na, and upon checking it, ang init ng batt niya. crap! what's happening on my phone! mola is still empty batt. sira kasi yung charger ko ng motorola, so, if there's someone who has a golden heart that will lend me a charger, gosh! I'll pray for you.. hahaha! joke

Oh well! good night!