Filled with doubt and heartaches

one big problem i have now is that i don't know how could i help my bestfriend with her problem.. she's into the stage of doubting into her man.. fortuitously, I also had problems and can't think well of to do.. at bago ko tulungan ang iba.. I should help myself first.. i miss my friends so much. tonight, i'm supposed to be with them in 22nd street, going out to the mall on a bored day, shopping and eating with girl friends, watching movies or dvds with my barkada, going online for friendster and my blog. but I don't think I could make it this coming week. I just choose going to Pangasinan,alone..(instead of bringing my friends), leaving without any cellphone to unwind and find myself.. I need time and space, to think what I should do.. I know that I should face this problem, but, honestly, i'm just not yet ready face it.. so much for now..