blagsh!..

Darn! It is too early in the morning! But I feel like... I want to blog! Gosh!.. I miss this... I don’t have time for this kasi lately... I do have a lot of school works... sUbra (pinag-samang SUPER at SOBRA) nakakainis! sa English! Every meeting... may homework! Every meeting seatwork at activity! And it’s kind of boring... Because I don’t think it would be very essential in our life or in the future... Now... I can really feel the pressure of being a college student!.. It’s too hard pala!.. I thought I’ll gonna be enjoying it.. Pero... ‘Di lang pala dapat enjoinments ang meron when you’re in college... dapat... meron ka rin initiative, perseverance, patience and Diligence. Nakaka-stress na talaga every time na papalapit na ang midterm especially ang finals!.. may college week pa!.. I’m planning to join pa naman sana sa solo singing contest.. kaya lang I don’t think I can still manages... kasi.. We still do have a play... though!... nag-bawas na sila ng sketch!.. mahirap pa rin!..oh my God!.. I’m currently listening to the radio.. now playing: I love you goodbye.. One of my choices na pwede kong kantahin... hahaha!!!.. So strange right?.. Anyway.. As I have said.. I’m busy.. I do still have badminton.. and cheer dance.. at eto pa!.. For how many consecutive nights... wala na kong tulog.. kung meron man.. 2-3 hours na lang ang tulog ko.. kasi I have to do my tasked as a student.. nakakaloka!.. Aside from my school.. of course I still have some things to do.. I have to attend regularly to my dentist.. For my treatment.. Speaking of dentist!.. I had a visit yesterday.. after my class. And then the day or the night before Gersen texted me.. and he’s asking me to go out with him.. And then I went out with him..kasi naman I don’t how and where to start sa sobrang nangyari for this week.. Mon. pa lang nag-simula na!.. uggghhh!!!.. how will I start nga ba?.. ok!..

last Mon. The whole barkada and I had a night out.. we went to White Avenue that night!.. we did have fun!.. as in super as in mega enjoy.. kasi.. we we’re not able to gather together.. because of our own busy lives.. surprisingly.. Drew came late.. well.. I was shocked!.. yah!.. that was just a normal feeling.. kasi… we haven’t seen each other for how many weeks. Tapos.. biglang ganon!..tsaka.. we had a bad condition... but we’re ok?.. everything’s fine!.. while walking towards us.. I felt the intuition..*ding!.. I don’t know why and what’s the reason.. and.. there was something different from him that I can’t even figure out and explain kung ano ba yun.. basta the only thing that I know was.. kinakabahan ako that night!.. tapos.. as usual.. batian mode!.. hugs and kisses.. at syempre ako ang pinaka-finale!.. basta ang alam ko din was.. may kakaiba kay Drew. Then after batian mode.. sabi niya.. sandali lang daw.. babalik siya agad.. after a couple of seconds.. he went back.. and guess what!.. he’s with another girl!.. holy sh*t!.. hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko.. ang hirap i-explain ng feeling.. sobra!.. it’s really hard for me to pretend because the people that I was with we’re my friends.. and they know me well.. It’s kind of.. you just don’t want to move for you not to be able to get their attentions.. pero..ang hirap talaga eh!.. ang hirap magpatay-malisya!.. we’re really, really good friends/magbabarkadas.. since then.. and for a long time.. kaya kilala na naming ang bawat isa.. and we know, what are the thing that really triggers our weaknesses and strengths. So.. habang pinapakilala niya yung girl.. I went out to pamper my own.. grabe!.. pababa pa lang ako ng stairs.. gusto ko ng matumba!.. they’re not aware that I was not around during that time.. si Gersen lang ang nakahalata.. honestly.. the only thing that I was thinking that night.. eh kung paano ko makakauwi.. dahil sobrang gusting-gusto ko ng umuwi.. sa sobrang weird ng nararamdaman ko.. after how many minutes of doing nothing.. I got a text message from Gersen.. and he’s looking for me.. and then I told him that I was just pampering myself.. kasi,, I’m not feeling well.. but.. likewise.. ang hirap talaga mag-pretend na ok lang ako.. nahalata na nila kung bakit ako nawala bigla!.. buti na lang si Gersen!.. to the rescue!..I really cried out loud to him.. kasi naman!.. unexpected eh.. tsaka ang bilis naman ng pangyayari.. naka-move-on na agad siya!.. oo nga pala!..

Pasintabi lang:..
This is my blog and my site!.. so.. I have the power to say something to the person whom I really wanted to.. nobody has the right to tell me and asked me why I’m doing and having these.. ok?.. if you have a violent reaction!.. I don’t care!.. this is mine not yours.. and even not to anybody else..!..
Back to the topic..

Thanks to Gersen.. he was there to help me.. we just went to sumulong hway.. para mag-unwind.. para sumigaw at the top of my lungs..


…continuation.. next time…

ugghHHhh!!!..

Omg1.. I don't know what I can feel right now.. well.. literally.. too cold.. as in super.. pero.. I'm very confuse.. I still love him(HANHIE KOH) but.. I'm dating other man.. my gosh!.. everything's going wrong!.. No!.. this can't be!.. grabe!.. ang hirap!.. the guy that I was dating with.. is a very intelligent and handsome guy.. in short.. boyfriend material.. :)) pero.. I don't know.. I guess.. I just really love him(HANHIE KOH).. oo nga pala.. I'll gonna be very busy this week and for the next 2 weeks. kasi there are a lot of activities(School and outside).. so I might not be updating this site of mine.. anyway..

Horrible!

Oh noooooooooooo!.. it's January already.. but.. still rains.. arrgghhh!!!.. crampyyyy!!!.. and this week?.. grabe!.. super as in super pa sa super na walng kwenta!.. Our first prof. for this day..... mega late!.. well.. thank God!.. maaga ko.. though!.. it's a very lazy and badtrip morning!.. nakakainis talaga mag-commute pag umuulan.. basa na yung shoes ko kanina.. and the worst izzzzzzzzzz.. kainis yung guy na nasa loob ng tricycle!.. he's so ungentleman!.. I was riding in a back-ride!.. azar!.. and another thing was.. I wasn't able to answer the recitation kanina.. *sigh!.. I forgot also that our english prof gave us a homework!.. huhuhu.. :( this is over!.. wala ng kwenta!.. my gosh!.. I don't want my tuition fee to be wasted.. Grrrrr!!.. buti na lang our Chemistry prof. made bawi.. he made our day meaningful!.. Actually.. we just watched the movie Super Big ME.. a knowledgable movie!.. gosh!..so interesting.. then from3-6.. after watching.. we went to our org. meeting for the musical play that we will be performing.. pero.. they're not yet finish.. so.. we just went out of the school early.. and!.. to my chem prof. thanks for the ride.. :)) *sigh...




grabe!.. I don't know why I dreamed of my crush last night.. I don't if it's a nightmare..the scenario goes like this.. my blockmates and I were sitting and chilling at the cafeteria.. and our topic was about my crushes in school.. then.. suddenly.. I told them daw.. that I do only have the love of my life.. and that's.. tooot(I wanted to keep it in private na lang.. kasi.. we're ok now.. and I don't want to destroy pa.. what we have and what we are right now.. and I guess.. if you really wanted to know who he is.. just see me.. or text me.. I'll answer you..) back to the topic.. I told them that.. I do still love that private person..(wait.. itago na lang natin sa pangalang..... "HANHIE KOH") yun nga.. sinabi ko sa kanila.. na.. isa lang naman talaga ang tunay at mamahalin ko ng habam-buhay.. unless.. he's already married.. pero.. kung hindi pa.. off course not.. diba!.. I should look for the right one for me.. here's what I've exactly told them "Oo.. pero.. mas mahal ko pa rin si HANHIE KOH(not his real name..)at siya lang ang pinaka-mamahal ko.. at gusto kong makasama for the rest of my life" and then.. after telling those words to them.. I turn to my right side.. He was standing beside me..with a very serious face and on his sporty looks.. and it seems like in just a snap.. nagbago agad yung paligid namin.. it's just like a room.. The place is not familiar.. I realy don't know.. and after 5 seconds.. he told me "ikaw aahh, sabi ko na nga ba mahal mo pa ko eh" then suddenly.. I woke up from my sleep.. and went back again to sleep.. para mabalikan ko yung dream ko na yun.. [in my dreams...] I woke up.. kasi I fell asleep.. and then.. I've noticed that my nail polish was removed.. and I was asking his friends and him why is it that my nail polish was gone.. and nobody's answering.. so.. deadpan!.. the scenario was very fast.. in just a twinkle of my eye.. nasa isang place na naman ako.. That place was in Dimasalang Park so.. we were in there.. and he's very makulit.. I don't know.. uggghhhhhh!!!!.. I wanted to shout at the top of my lungs.. because.. i don't know that I was dreaming.. so I thought I was in a Real world..and I thought everything is non-fiction.. it's all true!..grabe!.. and the scariest and creepy was.. he was asking me to become his wife.. since I love him daw. have sex with(I need a dream interpreter).. so after hearing him.. what I've replied daw was... "ano ba!.. I may be a slut!.. but I'm not a whore!.." and then.. he was pushing me away from him.. because i'm so pakipot pa daw!.. grabe!.. horrible!..

I don't know why and what's the meaning of it.. yah!.. honestly.. the one that I told my blockmates in my dream about him were all true.. I really do love him.. and I want him to be my husband in the future.. I don't know why.. :)) echos!.. of course I know!.. napaka-unreasonable ko naman!.. syempre.. sakin na lang yun noh!..
basta!.. ang alam ko.. I love him and I like him.. :))

First week of the year

Study!.. Study!.. Study!.. *sigh!.. sometimes.. I can't ease to wonder. why I shoukd still go to school!.. if.. in the future.. I'll just be serving my kids and my husband.. it's unfair!.. well.. I guess.. I shall be working even I do have my kids and my hsband.. because probably!.. I will not be wasting thousands of money every semester and hundreds of money everyday for my schooling.. just to stay and be a plain house wife in the future!.. definitely NO!.. *waaaahhh!.. really foresaking!.. I dunno!.. it just gives me a headache everytime I do thingking of it.. My Gooooosh!.. kasi naman noh!.. lately kasi.. and this is just the first week of the year in school.. seems like.. it's a lil bit annoying.. I dunno!.. doesn't make any sense going to school.. just like today1.. my first subject should be Filipino with Sir Camba!.. wut the heck!.. I woke up late!.. and I was really in hurry!.. and uggghhh!!!.. it's really hard to walk from the gate to the room.. tapos.. Ganun!.. It was really like.. I'd worked hard for nothing!.. sooooo!!!!.. ugggghhh!!!.. so.. we just went out of the Classroom and stayed in the cafeteria from 8.20 to 10.50..
I received a text message from the Org. President the other day..that we'll be having our meeting this day.. owe so boring..... late pa yung Pres. tsk!.. kainis.. and the product of that boredome was... I've realized that I'll not be attending my last subject!.. huuuuuuuuuhhhhh.. scary..... kasi.. pati mga friends ko.. didn't attend.. :)) "together we stand, together we fall" *sigh!.. ang daming monsters kanina!.. buti na lang wala yung Boss ng Satanas I wanted to unwind.. I wanted to check out the new greenbelt.. Greenbelt 5.. I haven't seen it yet.. just the other week kasi.. I was the Podium I went out for a casual date.. (nyaks!..) mmmm.. so far.. I still wanted to keep it in private.. kasi.. I don't wanna make it so.. complicated.. so.. I need a privacy for that.. :)) one thing that I know is.. I'm Happy!.. that's all I thank you!.. bow...

ohw!.. biglang pumasok sa isip ko.. mmm.. why shouldn'T I try to write a story of my own.. I mean.. yung story ng love life ko.. wahaha!!!.. getting crazy.. hahaha!!!.. wala lang.. Nag-reminisce kasi ako kagabi.. and I've realized.. na.. ang drama pala ng love story ko.. syempre.. story ng first love ko.. and medyo na-realize ko din na.. mahal ko pa rin pala siya.. kasi naman he left me to america.. huhuhuh.. :'(.. Tricky pero.. I'm kinda crying.. hahaha!!!.. wala lang.. ewan ko ba!.. I mean.. I know naman na hindi mawawala yung love eh.. pero.. It's more than that.. I guess.. how's he kaya?.. does he have a gf already.. (well.. I've heard.. meron..) but.. I'm not sure.. seriously.. I don't have to wonder.. Gwapo naman siya.. syempre.. pipili ba ko ng hindi gwapo..(oh ayan ahh!.. I didn't say anything..) hahaha!!!.. anyway.. here are some pictures during media noche!.. hahaha!!!..

Fickle..

Arrgghh!!!.. I dunno what's happening.. I mean!.. I really don't know what should I do.. There are a lot of things that I really wanted to do but I don't know where and how will I start.. because.. I wanted to do it now.. as in at this moment and.. I want to do it all.. I'm being stressed out with what I really wanted to do.. The year is just starting.. but.. seems like.. I don't know what I'll gonna do.. I want to prioritized such things.. I mean.. of course.. particularly and mostly.. my studies.. I really have to.. but Aside from that.. I wanted to pursue my singing career(naks!.. parang tunay ahh) well seriously.. yes I am!.. I want to have an audition in Center for Pop.. and as of now.. I wanted to perform live on stage.. I miss singing.. during my High School days kasi.. there were a lot of activities.. especially.. Feb. kasi.. it's my school foundation week.. so.. there is always an ACALITMUS(Academic Literacy and Music) I surprisingly remember when I was in my second year of High School.. lahat ng contest sa pagkanta.. sinalihan ko.. particularly.. SOLO, DUET, BATTLE OF THE BAND.. and I guess.. If they had a TRio contest.. I'll also be joining.. hahaha!!!.. buti nalang wala.. kasi.. after the contests.. inasar ako nung Values teacher namin..hahaha!!!. bakit daw di pa ko sumali sa oration at declamation.. nahiya pa daw ako.. hahaha!!!.. oh di'ba?.. bongga!.. aside from singing.. I also wanted to have a dance lesson or just.. to dance.. ewan ko ba!.. I've been Craving(parang pagkain lang ahh) to Salsa and Dirty Dancing.. gusto ko naman maiba.. pero.. syempre.. ung spirit ng pag-sayaw nandun pa din diba.. hayy.... at syempre.. I'm an anspiring model.. hahaha!!!. gusto ko ngang maging model ehh.. since I was a kid.. gusto ko na talaga!.. ewan ko ba!.. I also wanted to continue Hosting/emcee-ing.. I love speaking and entertaining people.. especially sa mga big events.. like.. Weddings, Debut, Fashion Show, and many more.... I also wanted to drive my own car!.. gusto ko rin matuto mag-motor.. pero.. I'm scared!.. and most of all.. I wanted to work!.. specifically.. I want to be a DJ in a radio station.. it's either Wave 89.1 or WRR 101.9 just the other night.. I was practicing that I was in a radio station.. where in.. many listeners are tuning in.. uggghhh!.. whatever Pia!.. and because I wanted to know the feeling of those people who earns money for their hardships and sacrifices.. hayyyyyyyyyyyyyy... kaya lang.. I know every thing takes time.. so.. out of bordome, frustrations and Cravings.. I just took a picture..
*Bugsh!..

Tenen................................







another pics. product of Boredom and frustration..







this is my itchura when i'm just in the house..



I'm infront of the comp.






This is what I usually do.. to overcome tediousity..






still me..





There are still pictures in my file.. pero.. it's 1am already.. had to sleep pa.. tomorrow na lang yung iba..

Good night..

Maligayang PasKo aT ManiGong BagonG Taon

ano ba yung "manigo"?

new year was cool. it's my favorite time of the year. I dunno if its the feeling of rebirth ot rejuvenation, or maybe just the festive mood in the air. maybe its both! aahh, I love new year.


This is I and My brother..


This was before 12.. we had visitors from our neighbors..

I spent midnight with my family in Antipolo.


Then, after midnight we left Antipolo to Pangasinan. we arrived in Pangasinan at around 4/5.. there was no traffic.. (malamang) but there were still cars who were out.. pero.. konti lang..
then, pagdating sa bahay.. January One breakfast is always the best!..wala ng tulugan.. we just waited for 9am.. kasi mag-chchurch kami..(as usual.. dating gawi) and it lasted around 4.30.. The worst thing was. I wasn't able to listen to the preacher/minister speaking/lecturing..habang nasa church.. kasi naman.. wala na kong tulog.. napatapos ko naman eh.. kaya lang late naman akong dumating..(what's new?.. I'm always late).. kaya nagagalit sa'kin si tatay(my lolo.. I used to call him "tatay") he's the president kasi of our church.. everytime na may church kami.. he always wanted to be early.. eh kasi naman maghihintay pa ng matagal.. kainip..

Presenting.....
my Grandpa..
Ernesto Parayno Sr.

It was his Victory Speech for winning.. as the President of our church.. Again.. of course.. thanks to our almighty God.. he knows what's best for Iglesia..
anyway..

Back to my first topic..






Those kids were the Choirs.. with my lil sis on her spongebob shirt..
everytime that there'll be church gathering.. they use to have a presentation.. not to the people.. but for God..

they look so cute.. and everytime.. they'll be performing.. I can feel the tension.. I feel so nervous for them.. wahaha!!!..

welcome back to me!

wahahaha!!.. whew!.. saya ahh!.. the bad thing is.. I still wanted to stay in Pangasinan. kasi naman we left Antipolo by 1.30.. super as in mega usok.. especially.. in Pasig.. tapos.. nakatulog na ko.. then I woke up by 3.30 we were in NLEX.. kasi.. we had our media dinner.. waaahh!!!.. after non.. by 4.00 we left NLEX.. then I slept again.. then I woke up at 4.45 we were in Urdaneta already.. grabe!.. sobrang bilis ng byahe!.. hindi ako na-dyahe!.. hahaha!!!.. anyway.. gtg.. kasi.. Manila zoo time.. wahaha!!!.. bye for the mean time..